39 Weeks & Nursery Reveal

3 So today I am officially 39 weeks and 6 days.

I have this surreal feeling that I cannot describe, almost as if I have taken a valium and am completely calm and relaxed permanently.

I keep visualizing my labor and birth and meeting baby R for the first time.

I have been waiting for this for so very long and my everything waits in lovely anticipation. Every kick and movement I feel brings me so much love and makes me feel closer to my son. This last part of pregnancy has been amazing and I feel so connected to my husband and everything just feels right.

Not going to do my usual update this week and instead will reveal our nursery, I feel the room turned out perfect and has a little mix of old and new that will be a very special place for our son. Hard to believe that this empty room that I used to lay on the floor and cry in mourning is now my dream nursery where I can nurse, love, sing to, and soothe my baby boy.

Dreams do come true.


Will post again after my 40 Week appointment with the midwife unless baby makes his debut first!



38 Weeks & Ready to Meet Our Son

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How far along: 38 Weeks and 5 days

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Currently 138 pounds, up 33 pounds.

Maternity clothes: Oh yes, but mostly dresses in this 100 degree heat wave

Stretch marks: Remarkably no and praying I stay that way!

Sleep: Yes, I am sleeping all the time. Most of the time a nap or two a day plus at least 8-9 hours a night. Although the bathroom trips are becoming like clockwork every 2-3 hours during the night, preparing me for nightly feedings!

Best moment last week: Realizing that I am full term and can have this baby boy at any moment! He is currently head down and in perfect position for birth.

Movement: Baby boy is slowing down a bit, but still moving- and I have been ordered to do my kick counts at least once a day (10 movements during a 2 hour period) apparently the placenta can get old and movement is important as it tells us baby is receiving enough oxygen. ps: I love when he has hiccups!

Food cravings/Aversions: Watermelon, waffles with fresh berries, yogurt, coffee ice cream with Hershey’s syrup, ummm pretty much loving everything these days but the above mentioned are my favorites at the moment.

Mood/Energy: So very happy, a bit emotional at times but in a good sappy kind of way. Just reminiscing about the last 9 months and our journey to have this baby and realizing that hubby and I become a family of three any day. Energy- a bit tired especially because my iron has been low, don’t think I will get the big rush of energy before birth that everyone talks about!

Labor signs: No- still experiencing Braxton Hicks but nothing major.

Belly button: Out

What I miss: My hands and fingers working properly! I have had tingly  finger tips in my right hand for weeks now  and  haven’t been able to clench my fists, apparently I am experiencing a weird pregnancy related blood flow issue to my hands.

What I am looking forward to: Birth and meeting our son!

Milestones: Full Term Baby! We are ready.

(Me at 38 Weeks and 1 day)

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25 & 26 Weeks and Baby is now the Size of a Head of Lettuce!

How far along: 26 Weeks and 6 days



Total Weight Gain/Loss: 124.5 pounds (gained ½ a pound) and I am starting to not even recognize my own thighs and hips, they have taken on a life of their own.

Maternity clothes: Most always these days and a few of my maternity shirts are too small, didn’t even know that was possible.

Stretch marks: No new ones but my old ones are looking rather interesting these days. I’ve been slathering on coconut oil and my body has been soaking it up!

Sleep: Waking up to go the bathroom now, and having some trouble falling back to sleep. I have had a few mornings where I start my day at 4 or 5 am.

Best moment last week: Realizing how soon I will meet our little one! And registering for all of our baby necessities! Oh my- these babies need a lot!

Movement: All the time and this has been one of my most favorite experiences during pregnancy! Gives me an instant rush of happiness!

Food cravings/Aversions: No decaffeinated English breakfast tea for me please! Disagreed with my tummy and it was like first trimester all over again! Oh but during the same day, I needed to have a Beach Hut Deli sandwich with all the fixin’s including pickle, cream cheese, avocado, tomatoes etc.

Kind of looked like this:

beach hut

Mood/Energy: Afternoons are difficult for me, and I find myself getting very sleepy. Also was told by my Doctor after my most recent labs that my iron levels are low. To remedy I have been taking a liquid iron supplement, but haven’t noticed a rise with my energy yet.

Labor signs: No, but at my 26 week appointment my midwife went over all of the different ways to differentiate if I was going into early labor.

Belly button: S-t-r-e-t-c-h-e-d!

What I miss: Hot Yoga & feeling my body stretch! 

What I am looking forward to: My first Mother’s Day of not being depressed, although I have a feeling I will be very emotional on this special day that I have avoided for so many years.

Milestones: Finally deciding and signing up for birthing classes..beginning Hypnobirthing classes in early June- so excited!


And for your viewing pleasure, photo taken at 26 weeks and 6 days


24 Weeks and Reflection

This past week has been a pretty big week for me both emotionally and physically.

 First off the 24 week mark means viability and the milestone point of pregnancy that infertiles’ crave the most.

 When this special day came for me I celebrated in joy and also reflected on my journey thus far.

 I began by reading past journal excerpts of the countless tear filled days leading up to conception of baby R. There were days that felt lower than low, mornings I could not get out of bed, crying fits in my car after having to interact with a random pregnant women and her darling toddler in a store or after reading about another pregnancy announcement on Facebook. Days when I did not know how I would continue to put one foot in front of the other while trying to navigate my childless world. Yes, my faith was tested, my personal resilience pushed to the max, but after reflecting I knew it was all worth it to be able to finally be a momma-to be.

 And oh how my world has changed.

 These reflections have created another surge of gratefulness within me that I cannot describe. At times I feel as if I need to pinch myself as a reminder that this is really happening to me! Just yesterday I was getting a few dresses altered and while waiting for the seamstress to come into my dressing room, I took the opportunity to simply look at myself. And I mean really look and stare at myself in the full length mirror and take in my reality. I studied my whole body from top to bottom side to back and settled back on my growing belly. I was amazed at how beautiful I both looked and felt carrying our miracle child and  for finally being at place that I had longed- for, for so very long, and feeling thankful and blessed beyond measure.

 Truly, I am enjoying pregnancy just as I always knew I would.



 How far along: 24 Weeks (VIABILITY) and baby is the size of a cantaloupe!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 124 lbs- up another pound!

Maternity clothes: Yes, but still able to wear some non maternity clothes as well!

Stretch marks: Not yet… but lots of blue veins all over my belly.

Sleep: Better! I think my hips stopped stretching because sleep has been wonderful again.

Best moment last week: Reaching viability- the big milestone and passing my glucose test! By the way, the worst part of my glucose test wasn’t drinking the juice which wasn’t half bad, but having to wait an hour in a crowded waiting room with someone who smelled like oniony body odor. Uggg-  Another wonderful moment and one that keeps happening is when J puts his hands on my belly and talks to baby. It’s the sweetest thing!

Movement: Yes, all the time and brings a smile to face instantly. First thing I do when I wake up now is try and make baby move, once I feel him move I can start my day!

Oh when do I need to start doing kick counts?

Food cravings/Aversions: Lately I’ve been loving oatmeal with bananas, walnuts, and milk for breakfast and maybe because of Easter, egg salad with crunchy celery and hotdog relish has been a lunch staple this past week. Aversions- still not a big fan of Italian food; marinara sauce and garlic.

Mood/Energy: Still emotional! Energy has been ok- although one of my test results came back that I am low on Iron and my doctor wants me on an iron supplement. Alternatively, I am taking Floradix (a liquid supplement) so that I don’t have to deal with bathroom issues- praying it works!

Labor signs: Nada!

Belly Button: Stretched

What I miss: Nothing and the days need to slow down already!

What I am looking forward to: My checkup next week and getting my baby shower announcements out!

Milestones: 24 weeks baby! oh and the glucose test over with!

Bump Picture and my “Lately”:

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24 weeks

Sophie- a gift from a dear friend- doesn’t she look so happy?

My orange glucose drink

and picking out paint colors for my bedroom and nursery!

21-23 Weeks Pregnant and Time S-L-O-W Down!


How far along: 23 weeks and baby was the size of a pomegranate and is now is the size of a grapefruit.

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 123 pounds- up 3 lbs from 3 weeks ago.

Maternity clothes: Oh yes, feeling large and in charge these days. Maternity shirts and pants are my friend. Oh and still trying to sport a few non-maternity dresses for as long as I can.

Stretch marks: Not yet…and religiously dowsing myself with elasticity oil and lotion daily.

Sleep: Hmmm ok- the good sleeping days are officially over. Tossing and turning, moaning, and now waking up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. I just keep telling myself that I am preparing my body and mind for a newborn and that makes everything ok.

Best moment last week: Finally deciding on a crib! Didn’t realize what a difficult decision this would be for me. Too bad it’s on backorder until June 1.

Movement: Oh yes-all the time.. and I love it! I must admit, when I don’t feel movement for an hour or so I start to panic a bit and will try and get him to move by placing my hands on my belly – is that bad?

Food cravings/Aversions: Still not a fan of garlic and onions, but I can eat them now without feeling sick. I was on a Cheerios and banana kick for a while, and lately just needing ice water all the time.

Mood/Energy: So far so good, not needing to nap, but on the weekends I have been indulging if I have time. I worked in my garden last weekend and the physical activity kicked my butt! Oh and I have been super emotional these days, I cried at a Masters commercial that aired on TV last weekend -really?

Labor signs: Nope- but some days I have round ligament pains and oh boy do they hurt.

Belly Button: Not sure what is going on with it- seems to be stretching, but not popping out yet.

What I miss: Nothing yet..

What I am looking forward to: Getting the glucose test over with-so much hype surrounding this event. Oh & painting the nursery! I’ll be sure to include some before and after pictures- so much fun!

And this was taken at 23 weeks:

23 weeks


20 Weeks, Anatomy Scan &…. Surprise!

For as long as I can remember, I had always imagined my first born as a little girl. So naturally, when I became pregnant I immediately thought we were having a girl, as did my husband and our friends and even our family too! (Basically everyone) So when we pulled  our “potty shots” out of the gender reveal envelope after our anatomy scan and saw a little penis and the words boy written below the picture, our whole world expanded that much bigger! Yes, we were shocked- but in a completely amazing and refreshing way! Finding out the gender brings so much more to the picture of this pregnancy and allowed us to fully engage envisioning our future life as a new mother and father. Since finding out we are having a son, J and I are feeling even more blessed than normal and I even went out and bought my first baby purchase since finding out we were pregnant!

 first outfit

 How far along: 20 Weeks and baby is the size of a Banana

 Total Weight Gain/Loss: 120 lbs- up another pound!

Maternity clothes: Yes and the cool weather is back so loving my maternity leggings (which I’ll probably wear for the rest of my life…shhh!) and the bump is definitely out for all to see.

Stretch marks: Not yet- but guess what is showing up? A very light version of the linea nigra!

Sleep: Well… still sleeping deeply but have been uncomfortable and apparently moaning and making odd noises in my sleep- oh and I started using a fluffy pillow between my legs and love the extra support.

Best moment last week: Finding out the gender!

Movement: Oh yes.. our little one is a little wiggle worm and I love feeling his movement

(eek- I said “his”!)

Food cravings/Aversions: Nothing that I have to have, but really enjoying food right now. Still no marina sauce or garlic or onions please!

Mood/Energy: Feeling happy and energetic for the most part.. some days when I have round ligament pains I need to rest and put my feet up, but for the most part I am feeling really well.

Labor signs: Not yet!

Belly button: Still in

What I miss: Nothing!

What I am looking forward to: Designing my nursery and starting home projects that I have been dreaming up, let the nesting begin! Or should I say continue… lets face it I have been “nesting” for years!

Milestones: Finding out our little miracle- baby -love- child is a son and the halfway point of pregnancy!

 And this is what 20 weeks looks like!

20 weeks

17 Weeks & Officially Popped!

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The rain is coming down outside my window and the birds are chasing one another in dizzying circles and fluttering about like it’s the first day of spring. They are loving this rain as much as I am and their chirps sound like songs of celebration bringing a smile to my face on this welcomed rainy yet gloomy day. Everything is in full bloom and there are gushes of whites and pinks and vibrant greens everywhere and is quite lovely to look at especially in the gloom. All the new growth around me matches the growth inside me –and I could not be any happier.   


Just finally finished another maddening 8 week term at school and I’m coming up for air once again.  I decided to add a dual emphasis on my major meaning I will have 3 additional classes to take before baby arrives. Actually, the last class will go through the end of August and my due date is early August-so technically I will be finishing school with a newborn. I’m not even thinking about “how I will do this” instead I just keep telling myself “I can do it” and I believe I can- and then I wonder if this is the ‘super woman’ feeling that comes over pregnant women? All the added hormones cursing through our blood making us feel like we can do it all and some? Will I wake up one day soon and ask myself – “what have I done?” Oh well-no time to think of that now!


On another note I am 17 weeks pregnant and I cannot believe how fast the time is going…I just want to s-l-o-w everything down and enjoy each and every moment of this pregnancy. That is why I have decided to add the pregnancy questionnaire to my blog and do my best to update weekly with a picture and all. I just want to remember this very special pregnancy  experience especially since it may be my last.


So here I go:

 How far along: 17 weeks & baby is the size of an onion

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Gained a whopping 12 pounds! (All belly-oh and a little booty too)

Maternity clothes: Oh yes! Luckily I live in a colder climate and have been wearing maternity leggings nearly every day since Christmas as they were a gift from hubby. Then last week I went online and bought a few outfits and staples from H &M’s maternity department and I am feeling set until spring /summer.

Stretch marks: Not yet… but I am just waiting as I already have them from puberty.

Sleep: So far so good, a few weeks ago I had a few nights of insomnia, but I am blaming school and my new job; not baby. Also, not needing naps as often now.

Best moment last week: Feeling my little one move!

Movement:  Oh yes- and I absolutely love the feeling and its’ been stopping me in my tracks at the utter amazement of a being growing inside me.

Food cravings: So now that my nausea and morning sickness have officially passed (as of about 2 weeks ago) I am able to eat more foods and lately I have been loving Chick-fil-A original sandwich smothered in ranch and buffalo sauce- oh and I tried their fresh squeezed lemonade the other day and fell in love and have a constant craving for it now. Mmmm. Lemonade.


Aversions: Still no garlic or marinara sauce please!

Mood/Energy:  Feeling wonderful! Energy is up and I have been a bit more active during the day and less naps. We even went to a friend’s birthday party last night and I stayed out until nearly 11:00!

Belly button: In- but stretched out so you can see a huge hole when I have a tight shirt on…interesting.

Gender: Find out soon, everyone is saying girl including me. We shall see!

What I miss: Hot Yoga. I crave my yoga. I have been thinking about going back and just hanging out in the back and doing some poses…but I am still scared of doing anything to hurt baby.

What I am looking forward to: Finding out the gender of baby R. (Two weeks or so-need to schedule the appointment asap)  oh & designing the nursery.

Milestones: “Popping” and finally looking pregnant & Feeling the baby move!

Bump Picture:

17 weeks