Alas…I am officially PUPO!

Oh my goodness, I couldn’t be feeling more at peace.

I just got home a little while ago after successfully transferring two grade 1- 3 day embryos. Here they are:

The transfer process felt surreal, and yet just as I had envisioned how this day would be for so long.

Feeling really at peace with where we are today and that’s more than I could ask for at the moment.

My plan for the next 60 hours or so is bed rest and taking it easy..and then to fully enjoy being PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise).

Feeling blessed beyond belief already.


Stim Check Number One


The outcome after being on stimulation meds for 5 days is as follows:

Right Ovary: 4 follicles all measuring about 7 mm

Left Ovary: 2 follicles all measuring about 7 mm

The ultra sound was super quick and Dr. S didn’t seem concerned with getting exact measurements for each follicle, instead he just clumped their sizes all together in the 7mm range.

According to Dr. S-my uterine lining looked great; follicles are maturing at about the same pace and I am responding as he had expected I would.

Then why did I leave feeling slightly defeated?

Being that this is my first cycle, I really don’t know how I should be responding.

Is this good? Bad? Indifferent?

Right after my ultrasound I met with my sweet nurse, whom reminded me while she was taking my blood for E2 levels, that it is quality over quantity.

I smiled at the reminder as “Quality vs. Quantity”  has pretty much been my motto for this whole IVF process.

After all the excitement of our early morning stim check appointment, and a second mid morning appointment with a client I decided I needed some “me” time. Soon thereafter, I found myself driving to my favorite nursery so that I could carouse the plant and tree isles aimlessly in peace and quiet. I even picked up a few shrubs and grasses for my side yard project that we are about to start.

Oh –and as an early birthday gift to myself, I bought a camellia plant which I have been eyeing for a long time.

I chose a camellia plant that had tons of bulbs ready to burst with color… I chose pink flowers, becuase I love the softness that pink brings to a yard full of greenery.

These are going to be so  pretty don’t you think…


Well, my next stim check appointment is Wednesday November 6, and this happens to  also be my 33 rd birthday.

Praying my birthday wish comes true once and for all!

The Shift (Towards I-V-F)


It’s time.

I have finally come to terms that IVF is our next step towards creating our little one.

(And also a way to hopefully preserve the eggs that I have left)

DOR (Diminished ovarian reserve) can be so difficult to process because of the sense of urgency that is felt with the prognosis and the fact that Doctors don’t really know how much time you have left to conceive.

Our “Pre-IVF Consult” is scheduled in two weeks where we will review possible protocols, goals, and timelines.

If all goes according to plan, I could be starting our first IVF cycle as soon as October.

Feeling eerily at peace with all of this, almost as if someone has lifted a huge rock off of my chest and I can suddenly breathe deeply again.

More thoughts to come…but for now I am fully accepting our path. Letting it all go and feeling creative and joyful and the most at peace that I have felt in a very long while.