Today is National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day. The entire month of October is set aside to bring awareness to pregnancy and infant loss, but today we remember our losses. Let’s take some time to remember the babies who were born asleep, or who were carried but never met, or those we have held but could not take home, or the ones who made it home, but did not stay.
♥ Baby loss is still a taboo subject. Break the silence ♥
Today I will light a candle in remembrance of our little one, he or she would have been a little over two years old this month.
I have finally come to terms that IVF is our next step towards creating our little one.
(And also a way to hopefully preserve the eggs that I have left)
DOR (Diminished ovarian reserve) can be so difficult to process because of the sense of urgency that is felt with the prognosis and the fact that Doctors don’t really know how much time you have left to conceive.
Our “Pre-IVF Consult” is scheduled in two weeks where we will review possible protocols, goals, and timelines.
If all goes according to plan, I could be starting our first IVF cycle as soon as October.
Feeling eerily at peace with all of this, almost as if someone has lifted a huge rock off of my chest and I can suddenly breathe deeply again.
More thoughts to come…but for now I am fully accepting our path. Letting it all go and feeling creative and joyful and the most at peace that I have felt in a very long while.