Feeling Thankful & Blessed Beyond Belief

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Oh my goodness! We are pregnant! Praise God!

I called in earlier this afternoon for my beta results and the first thing the nurse said was ‘Congratulations’!

Beta number one (10dp3dt) is 209 and beta number two (12dp3dt)  is 422.

Feeling so happy and blessed and full of joy.

The last few days have been very tough on me as I have been a complete emotional wreck and I even had a few breakdowns of  crying fits; which is not like me at all.

I’ve been waiting for today’s news for years and the words “you are pregnant” feels surreal and as if a huge rock has been lifted from my soul.

Oh and before my emotional breakdown that started on Sunday, I wrote a journal entry last week that I wanted to share… maybe I did know I was pregnant?

 

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I feel the presence of our little one already.

 I know we are together at last.

 My little one came back to us as I knew they would.

 Three years ago, this very cycle, I got my BFP, but miscarried at 9.5 weeks. After struggling many months years with infertility we embraced IVF as our next step.

 Fast forward to a little over 10 days ago, on November 12, I went in for my egg retrieval (ovulation day in IVF terms) and three days later transferred two beautiful embryos.

 Although this cycle mirrors my previous BFP cycle, I know in my heart of hearts that this one will result in our beautiful healthy take home baby R.

 The one in my dreams, the one I have thought about since I was eighteen years old. Her rosy cheeks and big brown eyes.

 Feeling blessed beyond belief.

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So for now I will continue to stay in the present and enjoy this pregnancy and try and stay as positive as possible, for J, for me and for our little one who is snuggling in for the long haul…

Oh and a very special ‘thank you’ to everyone for your continued encouraging words and prayers.. they mean so very much to me and more than you’ll ever know!

Will Power and 9dp3dt

always believe that something

Three full days left until we find out if our IVF cycle helped create our little one.

Our little one that I have dreamt about for as long as I can remember…

According to this website, I am at the stage past transfer (9dp3dt) that implantation is now complete and fetal development continues and HCG continues to be secreted.

Wow. This makes me feel all warm and bubbly inside.

And even though technically I could take a home pregnancy test; J and I have agreed to not test before we hear the results of our second beta.

Yes, I wrote that correctly my second beta.

My clinic is extremely conservative and has their patients take two betas within 48 hours of each other and only after the second beta is complete do they call with the results.

Although this seems like slow torture, I can understand this strategy as it’s the doubling time that truly counts, but oh my goodness my will power is being tested for sure.

At the moment I feel rather normal and am contributing a few of my “symptoms”

(increased appetite, increased tiredness, irritability, sensitive body, and tender breasts)

to the lovely progesterone in oil that I am taking every night.

Oh and I had an odd pinching pain in my lower middle abdomen yesterday afternoon that lasted about ten seconds and literally took my breath away -progesterone right?

Even Dr. S told me right after my transfer not to expect any symptoms during the wait as it’s simply too early yet.

Oh that progesterone –why do you give the same symptoms of PMS and Pregnancy and at the very same time?

So that is my ‘nearing the end of this 1 ½ week wait after transfer update’ and my next post will either be really amazing and joyful and full of blessings or the “other” which I won’t even let my mind wander to at the moment.

Continuing to stay in the present, feeling this working, and awaiting for confirmation of our miracle.

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Thinking Positive & Autumn Mug Swap

The day before yesterday is when a package arrived from my mug swapping partner Aubrey.

Being that I was smack dab in the middle of the waiting period before my beta, I really needed a kind reminder to “think positive” and something to keep my spirits up.

And that’s when this showed up:
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I had to chuckle to myself-as this was exactly what I needed to see and hear at the moment and well… there it was all shiny and pretty and full of gold tinsel too!

I am so happy to have been paired up with you through Ms. Jessica’s Mug Swap and have loved reading about your journey. Audrey, thank you for the adorable mug, a ‘special message’ that I really-really needed, and Starbucks card! Not sure how you knew exactly what kind of message that my spirit was in dire need of on the day that my package arrived, but for that I am thankful. Hearing about your wonderful positive baby news has seriously made my whole week! I am so happy for you and am looking forward to continue to follow your journey to motherhood and beyond.

And to include a fun quote for how I feel about new connections, autumn mug swap, and thinking positive…

CS LEWIS