Thinking Positive & Autumn Mug Swap

The day before yesterday is when a package arrived from my mug swapping partner Aubrey.

Being that I was smack dab in the middle of the waiting period before my beta, I really needed a kind reminder to “think positive” and something to keep my spirits up.

And that’s when this showed up:
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I had to chuckle to myself-as this was exactly what I needed to see and hear at the moment and well… there it was all shiny and pretty and full of gold tinsel too!

I am so happy to have been paired up with you through Ms. Jessica’s Mug Swap and have loved reading about your journey. Audrey, thank you for the adorable mug, a ‘special message’ that I really-really needed, and Starbucks card! Not sure how you knew exactly what kind of message that my spirit was in dire need of on the day that my package arrived, but for that I am thankful. Hearing about your wonderful positive baby news has seriously made my whole week! I am so happy for you and am looking forward to continue to follow your journey to motherhood and beyond.

And to include a fun quote for how I feel about new connections, autumn mug swap, and thinking positive…

CS LEWIS

Prince William and Kate

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The very day that Prince William and Kate announce their baby news, I am greeted with the start of my 29th cycle since first trying to conceive.

 

Why am I so very affected by others and their baby news? Why does it make me feel so- so very low?

 

I mean I can understand being affected by a friend or acquaintance who shares their happy news but Prince William and Kate? Really? Oh I feel pathetic at times like these…

 

Prince William and Kate are worlds away from me and never in a million years would I ever have the chance to meet them, and yet their baby announcement feels like a swift kick in the gut.

 

How do I overcome these waves of depression and nausea at the mere inkling of a baby announcement? When will I ever be able to swoon in glee with the news and feel happy and excited for the expecting couple like I used to.. like the old me would have felt. When?

 

I know the answer, and it doesn’t make me feel any better at the moment. I will feel better when I have my own baby announcement to share…but in the meantime coping with these baby announcements is not getting any easier, in fact, it just continues to get harder.

Cycle day one… beautiful Kate announcing her wonderful news… and another Christmas for me with no baby announcement of my own.

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Ugggg….Pity party for one please.

~kss