A Mamma at Last

Our beautiful baby boy was born Tuesday evening at exactly 42 weeks!

I endured a long and slow labor but was able to birth him naturally in the birthing tub and with no complications.

Each moment with him is a dream and being a mom is truly like no other feeling I have ever felt before.

His little sweet face and beautiful blue eyes fill my heart with love and joy and peace like I have never experienced.

Our miracle is in our arms just like I have always envisioned!

We are figuring out life with this new little soul but promise to post our beautiful birth story soon!

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40 Weeks Plus 3 Days & When Will Baby Make His Debut?

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So our estimated due date of 8/5 has come and gone and now I am sitting idle awaiting labor to start.

I had thought all along that I would give birth today on 8/8 which was our first babys’ estimated due date three years ago today and a very special day that I will always hold dear to my heart.

As of today no serious contractions, no lost mucus plug, no water breaking- only a very pregnant me!

Yesterday I was cleaning windows and screens, doing laundry, scrubbing toilets, vacuuming and so on thinking it may be just what my body needed. Yet all those activities just made me tired and very hungry!

At our appointment this past Wednesday our midwife explained that the next step is to come in on 8/12 for a non stress test and check everything carefully with the MD. She also explained that they will not medically induce until 8/19! Oh my goodness…that seems way too far away to wait!

Yet, waiting is nothing new for us, we have waited for our little one for so long (Four years since first trying to conceive) so I am very good at waiting, but honestly these past few days have crawled at a snail’s pace.

I have to gently remind myself that my body and baby are in charge of when labor will begin, not me.

Continue to keep you posted…

Love,

Momma-to-be

39 Weeks & Nursery Reveal

3 So today I am officially 39 weeks and 6 days.

I have this surreal feeling that I cannot describe, almost as if I have taken a valium and am completely calm and relaxed permanently.

I keep visualizing my labor and birth and meeting baby R for the first time.

I have been waiting for this for so very long and my everything waits in lovely anticipation. Every kick and movement I feel brings me so much love and makes me feel closer to my son. This last part of pregnancy has been amazing and I feel so connected to my husband and everything just feels right.

Not going to do my usual update this week and instead will reveal our nursery, I feel the room turned out perfect and has a little mix of old and new that will be a very special place for our son. Hard to believe that this empty room that I used to lay on the floor and cry in mourning is now my dream nursery where I can nurse, love, sing to, and soothe my baby boy.

Dreams do come true.

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Will post again after my 40 Week appointment with the midwife unless baby makes his debut first!

 

36 Weeks and Packing the Hospital Bag!

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How far along: 36 Weeks and 3 days

 Total Weight Gain/Loss: Current weight 137 lbs, officially up 32 pounds!

Maternity clothes: Most of the time yes, and wearing dresses nearly every day!

Stretch marks: Not yet.. the nurse even commented at my last appointment her surprise that I don’t have any yet…I told her it’s a blessing as I still have stretch mark scars from puberty.

Sleep: Oh yes! Naps are a once or twice daily occurrence for me. The exhaustion sweeps over me like a tidal wave and I can’t keep my eyes open. After a nap I feel like a million dollars!

Best moment last week: 4th of July with my siblings! This year all five of my amazing brothers and sisters were together in my home and I had the most wonderful day! It is rare for us all to get together and now my home is filled with special memories I will cherish forever.

Movement: Yes! Baby boy has been moving like crazy- especially at night, my bump looks so strange when he is moving and I always stare in awe and amazement.

Food cravings/Aversions: Still loving food, specifically fresh well made food. Fruit has been a huge part of my diet lately, along with fresh tomatoes from my garden. 3 varieties so far! Yummm!

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 Mood/Energy: Mood has been wonderful as I near the end of this pregnancy, a little emotional here and there just thinking about our infertility journey that has brought us to this point. Two summers ago was when I started this blog, a saving grace to the isolation and depression I was experiencing. And  just last summer we were consulting with our doctor and making the big  decision about pursuing IVF and here I sit a year later writing about my 36th week of pregnancy. Feeling so full and blessed and enjoying every precious moment left of this pregnancy.

 Labor signs: Well let’s just say that earlier this week I spent one whole day on the couch due to major pressure down low and even started to pack my hospital bag (just in case) …thankfully, according to the MD I saw at my appointment two days later, after said “pressure”,  I am experiencing something called lightening and this  is completely normal during this stage of pregnancy. Baby is getting ready! 

 Oh and Still measuring on schedule, blood pressure is normal, and baby is head down. Yay!

Belly button: Starting to pop!

What I miss: Nada

What I am looking forward to: Meeting our son.

Milestones: 36 weeks! And getting the strep B test done… Ouchy & why didn’t anyone forewarn me?

 And lastly a bump picture taken at 36 weeks 1 day:

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34 Weeks & Surrounded by Pink Peonies

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How far along: 34 Weeks Today!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: At my appointment last week I weighed 132 lbs.

Maternity clothes: Yes and living in dresses at the moment.

Stretch marks: Not yet..and nearly out of my special belly oil.

Sleep: Oh yes and very deep sleep lately, still waking up to go to the bathroom, but finally able to sleep in past 6:00 am.

Best moment last week: My baby shower! Oh my goodness, it was a dream. Truly- my sister outdid herself!  I was not only  surrouned by friends and family who supported me during my struggle with infertility but also pink peonies (my very favorite flower) and everything was truly stunning, no detail was overlooked! This baby is already loved by so many and my heart warms at all of the love we received at the shower.

(Here are a few photos of the lovlieness and I am still enjoying the flowers as you can see!)

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Movement: All the time! And at my last prenatal appointment last week, I was told that baby is already head down and will probably stay that way until birth!

Food cravings/Aversions: Loving all food lately! Mostly fresh vegetables and fruit! Trying to up my protein intake and eating more eggs now that I have my kitchen back!

Mood/Energy: Slowing down and napping again. A few friends told me I would get a second energy burst towards the last few weeks, and boy am I going to need it as I need to not only get my little one’s nursery in order but my entire house!

Labor signs: No, but I did have a little scare last week and called my mom to ask her what labor felt like. I could barely walk and had so much pressure down “there” that I thought I was having contractions. I think I just needed rest and went to bed early and woke up feeling much better!

Belly Button : Stretched and odd looking.

What I miss: Nothing! Feeling content and savoring every last moment of being pregnant.

What I am looking forward to: Putting babys’ nursery and wardrobe together!

Milestones: 34 weeks today, taking the hospital tour, beginning birth classes…finally feeling like I can relax and really start nesting.

ps: my mini home remodel is officially complete! Turned out beautiful and will post pictures soon!

And last but not least, me at 34 weeks pregnant!

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32 Weeks and Taking a Peaceful Breath

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Oh my goodness- it’s been a long time! This past month has flown by and I cannot believe I haven’t posted in 4 whole weeks! Below is my most recent update along with some photos to share with you of what I have been up to lately!

 How far along: 32 Weeks and 4 days

 Total Weight Gain/Loss: Since 27 Weeks I have gained another 6 pounds so 131 lbs.

Maternity clothes: Oh yes. I ventured into Pea in the Pod and Motherhood for the first time the other day and came out with three new dresses and two really soft tank tops.

Stretch marks: Not yet- but my tummy is full of blue veins.

Sleep: Better. Sleeping really deep lately, and literally fall asleep the minute my head touches the pillow. Still waking up early, but getting used to that and finding that early morning between 5:30-6:30 am is my favorite time of day.

Best moment last week: Finally buying my crib! (Thank you Mom!) I chose the Catalina from PBK and I am so relieved I have a crib sitting in my garage waiting to be put together – yay!

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Movement: Like crazy! This little one moves quite a bit and last week I either saw a foot or a hand poking through and it was the cutest thing ever! Actually the site surprised me and of course I got emotional and started crying.

(Growing a baby is simply amazing! )

Food cravings/Aversions: Good bye aversions – hello cravings and the ultimate love of food. Oh my goodness, everything tastes so delicious these days, and I am so happy that we have summer fruit galore; watermelons, grapes, strawberries, juicy nectarines- yum. Now I am just eyeing my green tomatoes growing in my garden and cannot wait to make tomato sandwiches once they have vine ripened. (English muffin, mayo, tomato, and salt) mmmmm and a little avocado and red onion wouldn’t hurt either!

 Mood/Energy: Slowing down finally, but my nesting has kicked into full gear. As we are nearing the end of our mini home remodel project, I have the organization and cleaning bug and thank goodness lots of energy. Looking forward to putting my home back together in the next few weeks before baby’s arrival.

Labor signs: Nope –just good ol’ Braxton Hicks- as my uterus is preparing.

Belly button: Stretched and odd looking.

 What I miss: Nothing at the moment- super content and happy!

What I am looking forward to: Starting my hypnobirthing classes, next ultrasound, hospital tour, putting my nursery together, and my baby shower next weekend! Below is an example of my baby shower invitation-although mine is so much cuter!  How adorable is this:

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Milestones: 32 Weeks baby & the last trimester! Countdown is officially on and  according to my midwife I have 6-10 weeks to go until we meet our miracle baby!

And lately:

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Laguna Beach mini vacation with my sister and brother in law, me at 31 Weeks, my adorable pups, and my new ‘sea pearl’ quartzite counter tops!

24 Weeks and Reflection

This past week has been a pretty big week for me both emotionally and physically.

 First off the 24 week mark means viability and the milestone point of pregnancy that infertiles’ crave the most.

 When this special day came for me I celebrated in joy and also reflected on my journey thus far.

 I began by reading past journal excerpts of the countless tear filled days leading up to conception of baby R. There were days that felt lower than low, mornings I could not get out of bed, crying fits in my car after having to interact with a random pregnant women and her darling toddler in a store or after reading about another pregnancy announcement on Facebook. Days when I did not know how I would continue to put one foot in front of the other while trying to navigate my childless world. Yes, my faith was tested, my personal resilience pushed to the max, but after reflecting I knew it was all worth it to be able to finally be a momma-to be.

 And oh how my world has changed.

 These reflections have created another surge of gratefulness within me that I cannot describe. At times I feel as if I need to pinch myself as a reminder that this is really happening to me! Just yesterday I was getting a few dresses altered and while waiting for the seamstress to come into my dressing room, I took the opportunity to simply look at myself. And I mean really look and stare at myself in the full length mirror and take in my reality. I studied my whole body from top to bottom side to back and settled back on my growing belly. I was amazed at how beautiful I both looked and felt carrying our miracle child and  for finally being at place that I had longed- for, for so very long, and feeling thankful and blessed beyond measure.

 Truly, I am enjoying pregnancy just as I always knew I would.

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 How far along: 24 Weeks (VIABILITY) and baby is the size of a cantaloupe!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 124 lbs- up another pound!

Maternity clothes: Yes, but still able to wear some non maternity clothes as well!

Stretch marks: Not yet… but lots of blue veins all over my belly.

Sleep: Better! I think my hips stopped stretching because sleep has been wonderful again.

Best moment last week: Reaching viability- the big milestone and passing my glucose test! By the way, the worst part of my glucose test wasn’t drinking the juice which wasn’t half bad, but having to wait an hour in a crowded waiting room with someone who smelled like oniony body odor. Uggg-  Another wonderful moment and one that keeps happening is when J puts his hands on my belly and talks to baby. It’s the sweetest thing!

Movement: Yes, all the time and brings a smile to face instantly. First thing I do when I wake up now is try and make baby move, once I feel him move I can start my day!

Oh when do I need to start doing kick counts?

Food cravings/Aversions: Lately I’ve been loving oatmeal with bananas, walnuts, and milk for breakfast and maybe because of Easter, egg salad with crunchy celery and hotdog relish has been a lunch staple this past week. Aversions- still not a big fan of Italian food; marinara sauce and garlic.

Mood/Energy: Still emotional! Energy has been ok- although one of my test results came back that I am low on Iron and my doctor wants me on an iron supplement. Alternatively, I am taking Floradix (a liquid supplement) so that I don’t have to deal with bathroom issues- praying it works!

Labor signs: Nada!

Belly Button: Stretched

What I miss: Nothing and the days need to slow down already!

What I am looking forward to: My checkup next week and getting my baby shower announcements out!

Milestones: 24 weeks baby! oh and the glucose test over with!

Bump Picture and my “Lately”:

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Sophie- a gift from a dear friend- doesn’t she look so happy?

My orange glucose drink

and picking out paint colors for my bedroom and nursery!