Cycle Number 32: Letting Go of All Expectations

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“I flow freely and lovingly with life. I love myself. I know that only good awaits me at every turn”

I have had this Louis L. Hay card propped on my desk for weeks now and today I am especially taking notice of the words as I near the end of my two week wait.

I allowed my hopes to rise this cycle (32nd cycle since first beginning this journey) due to some strange symptoms that I took notice to a few days post ovulation.

The symptoms I experienced were an array of heartburn, indigestion, backaches, irritability, and lastly a huge bbt dip at 9,10, or 11 dpo.

With each new symptom, came another wave of hope and excitement.

By now, after so many failed cycles with similar symptoms, I should know better than to “symptom spot” but occasionally I allow myself the pleasure of doing just that- and this cycle was one such occasion.

I also divulged in my “happy place” visualizations:

I visualize baby and I taking our daily walk with my pups at our side, I imagine dh, baby and me lounging outside on a soft blanket spread out on our soft green grass..Me pointing out the chirping birds and fluttering butterflies, she giggles and coohs. The feeling of contentment surrounds us and settles peacefully in our souls.

I truly love this part of my cycle where I can dream openly and allow myself a sliver of hope that I actually might be pregnant -right this very second.

But I look back to my Louis L. Hay power thought card and let out a heavy sigh.

As I know my time is almost up and to let this all go.

Release the expectation.

Fold it up like an old cherished love letter and tuck it away in a book on the highest shelf for safe keeping.

Until next time.


5 thoughts on “Cycle Number 32: Letting Go of All Expectations

  1. This is a beautifully written post. I think that whatever the eventual outcome, it’s important to hope sometimes.

    Love the new look of oyur blog too!

  2. Beautiful sentiments beautifully expressed KSS. You’re so lucky you love the 2ww part of your cycle. I absolutely hate it. But I know what you mean about indulging in a wee bit of hope every now and then. And your visualizations are a great idea. I hope you’re feeling OK? Must go have a look at your redesign! Hugs.

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